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Tuesday, 22 December 2009

  • Happiness is not a Goal, it is a By-Product.

    What it says above; true ne ~ ?

    I'm generally hyper and... gayly-weird at school, school is where I can release my hypernesss. But now that we don't have school, i have to release it at home but my siblings are either ;dead or; not as weird as me or; 'i don't wanna turn out as weird as her' mode.
    T____T So here I am at home doing weird things on my own ;|

    I have . . . 4 exams in January ~ :/ 3 resits and C3 ~ T_____T
    So many exams :/ I'm actually crapping it. I mean I mean paid £60 - 70 on resits and if I get a shit result or the same results as the June ones, I am gonna be pissed -__-

    So yeah that thought came into my head last night so therefore I buckled down on revision ~
    Remade notes, established a booklet on psychology expts conducted, and well yeah ~ the usual.
    First two hours, was like really efficiently done but after that 3rd hour, hunger broke out and my motivation dropped to 0. You can tell when you've lost motivation when you stare blankly at the worksheets, commence writing and then stop after the third word and then again stare blankly at the work sheet ...
    Iono whether I can be that motivated tomorrow ! ~ T____T

    Started watching 'You're Beautiful' !
    Good drama , it's almost-nearly-exactly-but-not-entirely the same as Hana Yori Dango + Hana Kimi. The essential plot and storyline is almost the same and the characters are like ... nearly the same.
    And that's what I hate >___> Like in HYD, the girl falls for the bastard and not the one who helps her out more ~ T____T I dispise them plots but like it's good to watch (Y)

    I swear my eyes have decreased in size over this winter break ... .____.
    yeah I know what you're thinking, I mean how can they get any smaller. Well I'm thinking the same as well!

    I researched Memory on Google cos I've got naff notes on it from the teacher and came across that "Sleeping aids memory and consolidation" Wtf I never knew that.
    NO WONDER I GOT A C FOR PSYCHOLOGY == AND ECONOMICS! I mean I revised CRAPLOADS for them and came out with a C which is what I didn't want. I mean if I had slept more ... ~ sighs.  T.T
    I never knew that >.>

    I never knew that if you wanna go for a shit, you press in the fleshy bit between your thumb and index.
    Y'know the webby-bit. Well iono if that's true.
    Or to control your appetite, you massage the bit in front of your ear ... like the bit of skin in front of the hole of the ear ~ ...

    Omg I'm tired ~

Sunday, 13 December 2009

  • Who says nothing is impossible, I've been doing nothing for years!

    AMEN TO THAT! ~body rolls
    YO YO YO ! Gimme high5!
    Ah update! I have nothing to update.
    My Jans exams are very soon and I cannot find my economics revision book -___-;;;;;; I'm praying it's at school!

    I actually hate the kpop group Rainbow. Wtf are they. Their singing is like what, AVERAGE! wtf, get off the stage -_-
    Their manager or whoever should short their engrish out >_>;;; I mean what the, gosship gurrrlll -__- ~shakes fists! Average singing voices, can't dance and they fall it on stage.(Y) Good going! Only thing good about them is that the majority of them have nice legs!
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Q-7mDHZXAY&feature=player_embedded
    She even falls to the music :')

    I'm officially a B2uty! Mwahahaha. They're so talented and hot and just (A)
    Dammn Yoseob has lost his playfulness on stage ;(

    I'll be frank. I miss Jaebom being in 2pm :'( I only just got into 2pm a month ago ~ I started watching some shows of 2pm, i.e. Wild Bunny, erm, Idol Show? Yeah, they were so outgoing but now, they're like zombies! Literally D: Minute moments here and there of playfulness but meh ~ not as much as before D: Come Back Jay! ~reaches out hand ~ xP

    School ends on Thurs ^___^ Xmas holidays ^_____^
    Going Scotland on Xmas day! Or eve? Can't remember! Not looking forward :/ I cannot stand the coldness down here, how am I to survive up there D': ~shivers!

    Um, AH! This xmas ~ Aigooo  T____T I do not feel it at all! I only feel the xmas spririt when I'm in the common room cos me and my group decorated our little corner :') it's so beautiful :')

    I rode in my friend's car the other day! T'was the first time I rode in someone else's car who isn't a parent or an older! XD At first, I was so scared! I mean what if she makes a mistake, like iono, whilst going around a roundabout, she doesn't turn fully and therefore collide with the roundabout but it was safe to say she did well :') It made me wanna take up driving lessons but my fear is too big so therefor I subsided T_T

    Ah reading over this, it's actually quite boring and so meaningless LOL! xP
    But nonetheless I don't wanna neglect xanga !

    If I am not able to say this beforehand,
    Happy Christmas to you All! Hope you had a good year and erm, all the best for the next year!

Wednesday, 02 December 2009

  • Nobody is listening unless you fart ~

    Go to bottom to skip updates, the bottom concerns you guys! ;D

    WAHEY, ~ FARTS ;;DDDD
    Don't look at me like that, as though you're disgusted! xD
    As humans, the way we are biologically built and function, it's arguably a necessary to fart! Within reason may I add.
    We don't want unwanted, and toxic gases in us right! It's like not going poo!

    Ah I just saw this group: "I have texted lying down and dropped the phone on my face"
    LMAO.  I love. It's like ... "KO!"

    Fa-shur-blucking hell, WHY ARE BEAST-SUBBERS SLOW?! TT________TT
    I am waiting impatiently for subs for MTVB2ST and their interviews. Iono, I think it's to the point where impatient cannot express how I am feeling.
    SAME WITH MBLAQ AOS! ~throws self off chair.
    But for the meanwhile, I am indulging myself in U-Kiss. I actually adore Kevin and Alexander XD Their english is next to perfect and they act so lovingly gay <3
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLwY81Oel54
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j35mDkHhR5c
    I hoope that I get to meet a real-life yoseob... or shinee minho. lmao <3
    FANGIRL SYNDROOOMEEE

    I got a D on my C3 mock T___T;;; It wasn't even a mock actually, we got given a paper as homework meaning we had our book to help us. So therefore, I should have gotten at least a B right? ==;;; But I didn't ... I FAIL! T____T
    I spoke to my teacher about it, and she said it's like a repeat of last year. Throughout the AS academic year for maths, I kept getting Cs and Ds and I came out with a B at the end! So I'm hoping it happens for A2 :/ Quite a big wish but.. meh >.<

    For those who don't know, I GOTS MY 5 CONDITIONAL OFFERS. YEAAAAHHH, GIMME THAT, GIMME A HIGH5555!!!
    yeah yeah yeah!

    Aw what else to blog, oh for this 20mark essay for economics, I wrote 3 pages ;DDD
    lmao; I had written down so much notes that like, I feel as though it may be a bit too much ;D

    Well, erm, nothing much to say  ~^^ OH!
    I've been REALLY anti-social to my non-school friends lately. I do apologise!
    I haven't been on msn for .. 3 months now , xD
    But lemme just say that I do in fact have free texts, to any network, I don't know how, ;D
    So yeah, I am eager to hear how you guys are doing! Text me your updates :]
    Hope to hear from you people :)
    Take care for now!
    ♥

Sunday, 22 November 2009

  • Shameful Confesssions

    Ahh ~ I am so shameful to say I am a fangirl! T__T
    I usually think it's weird for normal individuals to be infactuated and to be completely possessed over normal ... individuals.. . Weird right :/
    It's like you being totally starstruck over your friend. .. .___.

    But this time, I've been hit ... by B2ST! Gahh T__T
    I'm like their #1 fan! Woo B] Dooseob ftw! XD Theyre really my guilty pleasure :) I adore the bromance between the two, I mean, playful flirtiness whilst flirting? THAT'S SO HOT!? ~squeals
    Excuse me :)
    I've been replaying the bad girl song for countless times and days o__o;;; I should be sick of it by now but I'm not . . D:

    DOOJOON?! WHERE D'FU-DUCK ARE YOU?! T___T

    Sulli from f(x), she looks mega cute in the Chu~♡ video !!! ♡♡♡
    Amber has lost her manliness cos of her hair D: NUU!! T____T

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

  • "Nationalising" extreme emotions; Necessary?

    Nationalising is basically when a firm converts from being privately owned by individuals and/or shareholders to being government owned, in the state's hands.   Basically, what use to be individuals is now in the government's hands.
    The Royal Bank of Scotland is now nationalised, so ... theoretically, people... you are part owner of a bank ;DDD
    So. . . nationalising feelings. It sort of works? Feelings are meant to be your own's :/ You are the owner of your feelings. Other few people are also recipients of feelings such as love, that is an extreme emotion isn't it. Yes, so you could say they are. .. the shareholders ..
    Not exclusively just yours but then they are not everyone's right?

    Some should really privatised their highly expressed emotions and not publicise it for everyone to see, whether it be anger or "depression" or whatever. In my personal opinion, it is just a mere attempt to hunt for attention or for bucketloads of sympathy... I mean aren't your close friends giving you enough? Oh it isn't? OH might as well leech it from the general public and hopefully it'd compensate for the attention deficit which your friends have created.
    Surely extreme emotions should not be shown for everyone to see :/
     
    Is writing it on a public blog the same as telling your friends? ... ^o)
    There is a profound difference between the two == If you perceive and treat them as the same, then what are friends for then?
    I guess it's the same when people show/talk about their extreme emotions to people who they barely know.
    I'm no psychologist but ... are extreme emotions meant to be publicised to the extent that everyone and anyone could see or hear? ;|
    Is extreme anger meant to be shown to everyone~ :|
    Wow imagine that ;D I get majorly pissed off at at least 1 person everyday, imagine if I showed it ;DDD Imagine if everyone else did it ;D   COR! The world would be in like a never-ending war xDD
    I feel as though I'm gonna get many haters from this xD
    OH WELL! HELL TO CONFORMITY. well within reason.


    ANYWAYS!
    Nothing much to update! Just stressing over school as per usual. Gots a big maths test this friday because finished C3 already =0=" So close to my Jan exams T____T Started revising Psychology and Stats already -.- My god T_T So many exams for Jan >_> Just scared that even if I do all this revision that I'll still get a SHIT mark xD
    Wasting my time and money like >___>

    What else, what else. . .
    Ah yes, got internet back but the bloody desktop computer is broken -____- FFS LOL! It only acted funny ever since the return of the new internet router and provider == Bloody ..  CURSES!
    Okay internet, such a minor but I needed the desktop cos photoshop is on there and I need it for the decoration of posters and stuff for a volunteering project ==
    THE SCHOOL'S ONE IS SLOW! =="
    ~sighs

    Oh B2ST ARE SEXY BEASTS <33333
    Non-stop replay for the past 2 days xDDD
    Ah :3

    HIBERNATING! <3

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

  • Overdue Trivial Update: Including the past 3 weeks plus the next 2 weeks.

    Yoo my lovely readers :]
    Definitely long time no see! Ahaha it's been a while as I have no internet at the present moment.
    Skip to the bottom if you want to skip my trivial updates! ^^
    It is an extremely complicated story and quite long winded haha, it's just dreadful events, one after the after. But it all because my family is switching internet providers. Those who I've been texting, y'all know XD
    Well I have so much to blog because I haven't blogged in so long O_O This blog might be a tad bit long. Thank you for those who will potentially read to the bottom :]
    Firstly, I am so bored at home LOL. No internet meaning no youtube videos, no farmville, no happy farm and no allkpop. I'm thankful at the time that my mum switched internet provider that we re-installed sky movies :') Watching at least one movie a day LOL! XD
    But I'm actually doing more work than usual, only because I have to xD

    SOCIAL:
    I'll admit this. I am drifting away from a number of individuals due to the fact that I have no internet (weird huh :/).
    Not many but still a few. I don't know whether it's because they cannot be bothered to talk to me or is it possibly because they have others to indulge themselves in. As in they replace me with ease. Offended? A little bit. But to be honest, I am not unhappy but then I would not say I'm REALLY happy because of stuff but I can safely say that I am happy :)
    It was only, I am guessing only 3 weeks ago where I was like so T____T like proper blah. I couldn't lift myself from my own sorrow, curiosity, regret and self-pity. Weird really because generally, I am stronger than that, no doubt, definitely stronger but that particular situation just drained me. But I was quick to recover thank god :3
    Oh and I've finally caught up with my bumchum Louie :3 It's been a while huh :) If you're reading this, it's nice to talk again :)

    SCHOOL:
    Well I'm getting okay in school as per usual. I am not excelling, but doing averagely well :)
    I feel as though I excelled through a chapter in stats, I hardly requested help and to me, that is me excelling :)
    Business, I think I am getting better :) But due to distractions in business and econ, I'm having to write extra notes at home to maintain my A at Alevel T_T

    JOB PROSPECTS AND WHATNOT:
    I once again went job hunting and this time, due to the Christmas season, I might be able to get a job :3 I am so happy :) Even though I might not potentially get one but nonetheless, it's something :) It'll kill my weekends meaning it is highly unlikely that I won't get to visit my friends in London :[ But rationalising it now, I doubt it'd make a profound difference to the majority.

    UNI:
    I'm waiting for replies from my five universities. I am WISHING and PRAYING that I get all 5 replies so then well I have more choice ^^


    Okay, enough of my trivial updates. I'm on my neighbours internet and I am guessing they are more than a few doors down meaning it doesn't connect that well     but skimming through some of you guys' blogs, you guys are hurting so bad :( I'll be cheesy and I'll be corny, but I won't be faking and won't be begfriending but I'll say it slightly hurts me to see you guys like this. I don't know what's happening nor do I want to as it is none of my business.
    But I hope you guys have better days, better than what you've been through in the last couple of weeks or so. Stay Strong !
    Make things happen, Create opportunities, Demolish the weak and the weaknesses, Rationalise and think, Do not think narrow-mindedly, Think and consider the bigger picture and one will then come out victorious.
    Linger and float in your pool of self-pity and regret, drown in a sea of sadness if you will, but alternatively, one could stand up. Absorb what is happening around you, learn and the outcome would be that you'd be the one who would be benefiting the most. The one who would be experiencing happiness longer. The most likely party to be creating sustainable happiness.

    I'm finished :) I hope this uploads LOL! fcukin' hell xD Well I'll see you guys in two weeks ^^
    I hope by then I'd be blogging / ranting about my job ! XD ~fingers crossed ^^
    Take Care :)

Sunday, 11 October 2009

  • Jealousy is a mind cancer.

    I typed this last night but internet! T__T
    Sorry Giles <3 Didn't get to say bye, we'll dmc tonight ^^ I'm glad we're back together again :D
    Retype of blog:

    Previous previous blog - ~ticks!
    It was done easier than I thought, quicker than I thought.
    Although, I wanted it to last, but it couldn't.
    Is my pride and stubbornness to blame?
    Is my stupidness for believing in something which was a fcukin' fake to blame?
    Or is that person to blame?
     
    In experiments, observations, in any psychological and scientific methods of gathering data, extraneous and confounding variables were always a problem. It affected results and it needed to be removed or maybe equalified (er not a word but what I meant was that everyone should have similar confounding variables).

    But in real-life situations, whether it be good or bad, extraenous variables can help the situation and possibly move it along.
    In this case, the extraenous variable helped me move on so fast and so much easier.
    However much I hate it, I thank it for making things happen.

    Things are over, I'm glad.

    Crystal Law <3 Me thankies you!
    I hope things get sorted!

Thursday, 08 October 2009

  • Murphy's Law: Whatver can go wrong, will go wrong.

    Omg T_______T I had a rough week this week. I broke my glasses again .___.
    IM PISSED OFF MAN! ¬¬ I took them off, placed them on a table in school this morning and then like 10mins later, found them on the floor with one leg being twisted 90 degree. WHAT?! so I bent it back to its original position and I snapped it. FCUKIN' T___T I was blind for the rest of the day. Second time I broke these glasses >=) Oh did I tell you that a week ago, I accidently filed one of the lens? So there's a permanant white mark on my right len?

    I bumped my head the other day, well 3 days ago, cos well, it's a real long story and hard to expllain but essentially, I bumped my head at full force and it still hurts == Occasionally, I get a random head pain in the region where I bumped...

    This morning, when I had to print my UCAS off, the printer wasn't working...

    Hm, I think that's all I can think off top of my head. Omg I hate it when the bus leaves when you're like at the bustop and it won't stop for you ==

    Anyway! Moving on. I'm actually happy :D I've finally sent off my UCAS! I think I've written the most drafts of personal statements ever! Before I changed from Business Management to Business Economics, I had written I think around 5 drafts, and adding another 5 or 6 with my new degree, it actually equals to 10 drafts LOL! And I actually go to the same teacher to mark my work lmfao. Aw Kennedy <3
    Also, i started writing my personal statement a few weeks before summer, so this UCAS feeling has lingered around me for the past 5 months! XD

    Royal Holloway, Surrey, Burnel, Kingston and Queen Mary's...
    All London unis. >_> I would go further but I'm physically and emotionally scared to LOL I wouldn't dare to venture out on my own T___T

    Also, my mouth is healed! xD WOOT, no more herpes mouth?
    Meh can't go King's Coll anymore :( They don't do Econ >_> i hope I get accepted by RH ^^ Wish me luck <3

Wednesday, 07 October 2009

  • It's not what if, but what now.. ?

    Falling deeper than initially calculated.
    Way Deeper ...            As a consequence, they are rebounding onto me.
    As much as one tries to block it or shrug it off, being a human, speckles of sorrow and jealousy still linger.
    Saying so-and-so is one thing, but doing it is another.
    Continuous failed attempts with no or very little result is demotivating and self-eroding.

    To think of others before oneself is a good deed.

    To only calculate as objectively as much as possible and to ignore the subjectiveness of humans is a crime of feelings and an act of idiocy.

    Having an aim. To take giant steps, to miss out steps to get there quicker is irrational, and the positive outcome(s) will not last long-term.
    Small steps ensure that little mistakes will not occur; it ensures that mistakes will not occur often; and it ensures that things are  planned and thought out properly.
    Trying to dispose of a 2000kg situation in one go but really, should be disposing it 20kg at a time. Why? Less injuries. Effort and accomplishments are distributed evenly, vaguely, it feels as though achievements are prolonged. Thus happiness is somewhat prolonged in a narrow sense.

    To get to my aim; to take smaller steps to get to my goal more efficiently and systematically. But it goes against my life strategy and perception of everything. However, for long-term happiness, it must be done.
    The difference between try and triumph is the extra "umph".

    Tired. Goodnight all.

Tuesday, 29 September 2009

  • Trivial Update. Maybe this world is another Planet's hell.

    This blog is going to be different! Because I won't be lecturing or discussing economic shit or anything boring like that! This is purely a trivial update. I do realise that my previous blos are off "deep" blogs whihc consist of some hidden meaning or teachings, or some sort of educated rant, but this time, s'all normal! (Y)
    I do know they are quite boring sometimes but, I like to write what is supressed on my mind :)

    Update: My fcuking lip. Don't know fcukin' annoyed I am with it == It's chapped, dried and like swollen? Well not swollen 24/7 but sometimes it is T___T No matter how much cream I put on it or not, it stills lingers T_T I use to have smooth lips believe or not, and to have sandpaper lips now just takes the piss. FCUKING WEATHER CHANGES! GRR GIMME BACK SUMMER T_T

    Update #2: Uni. FFS xD I changed uni courses, from Business Management to Business Economics XD It was only a week ago where I realised that I hate business SO much xDD! I just thought BM was an easy-go-with-the-flow course to do but meh~ I want to at least integrate with something. XD Had to rewrite personal statement and look up uni choices T_T Also work experience ! FFS T___T I havent even got one == STRESS D:

    Update #3: Stats ¬¬ Failed this test, I did it ALL wrong T__T

    Update #4: Thumbs + Texting. I've develoepd some sort of aching pain in my thumb from continuous texting XD You're right, I could easily go on msn but like that is just stupid cos I get distracted and won't go off till 2 in the morning T_T Phone calls ~ It usually takes up more of my free time than I think T_T I awnt a softer phone == my phone's buttons are too hard D':

    Update #5: Happy Farm. Lmao ffs == People keep knicking my flowers. REBEKKA TIETTT!! T___T STOP STEALING MY FLOWERS!='( I steal alot lmfao. I have such a good collection in my storage. Worth up to 12k lmfao :DDDD

    Update #6: Random moodswings. Lol I'm such a freak lately! XD One min I'm happy but then the next, I'm grumpy! BOOO!

    Okay now back to work now! I've got so much work to do and I overnapped today >___< I need an alarm clock, cos I'm able to persuade my sisters to gimme more time even when I'm half asleep! XD

  • Long Read: Apcolypse 2012.

    Apocolypse : 2012 : Dec 21 or 23
    Note: I'm not tryna create some huge hysteria over this, because ofc it might not be true, considering the fact that in the past, this isn't the first time that pseudoscientists, physists and superstituous people been saying that an apocolypse was going to happen. I mean do you remember the nuclear/black hole experiement, stating that maybe a man-made black hole would be accidently created which consequently would swallow up Earth and etc.etc. Now that was some (Y) shit.
    And then the 06.06.06 nonsense.
    But what made this 2012 phenomena "different" and potentially "real" is the combined beliefs of this... critical point in time.

    Aztecs / Mayans? believe in this sort of calender? They predicted the date of "doomsday" and people are believing in them because they calculated the length of the lunar moon? As far as humankind progresses, if some geniuses predicted one thing amazingly right, any further hypothesises and guesses, they vaguely assume they're right also. Generalization ofc. I'm glad skepticals were born and integrated into the majority of the bulk population on Earth.

    The Sun. As you may/should know, that the Sun has been our loyal saviour for the past billions and gajillions years, and that it sends off radiation to Earth which breeds and harvestes life as we speak and/or read. But lately, the rate of radiation ommited (or is it emitted? Ah science GCSE fail?==) from the Sun has increased and apparently in 2012, it's going to reach the peak where it emits so much radiation, it'll kill Earth and any living organisms. Right.

    Religious Beliefs and Prophecies. I've decided to combine all three together seeing as the baseline is almost similar. I really do not believe this bit but interpretations of the Bible has concluded that the final battle between Good and Evil will occur in 2012 thus Armageddon. Another religous belief is the warning integrated in some parts of Hindu Teachings and the same with a Chinese "bible" if you may. The I Ching is somewhat equivalent to the Bible and Qu'ran, I read up about it cos I was actually interested but I didn't understand majority of it... But something about a white guy predicting a date for End of the World due to "major shifts in humanity's biological and cultural evolution. Don't like it =/ Subjective. It's in relation to another French dude who was a seer, who published accounts of Prophecies. ~Shrugs iono. Religious ideas and whatnot have always been the huge hole in my knowledge..

    Others: Magnetic fields and Volcanoes...Oh and Global Warming.

    Iono why I typed this up, but I think it's cos I actually do want it to happen. I know ._. Weird.
    But like I do want it to happen cos mankind has been a bitch for too long and I would want it to start again or maybe start a whole new race. "Jenny-ians" Snazz. However, I think my main reason is cos I don't wanna grow up and actually get a job XD It is a cowards' way out but meh~ I hate the World.
    Fcukin' Government eating away my tax money, stupid chavs and idiotic fools eating away my tax money through benefits and ignorance! BAH!
    Governments aren't here to help society, but to absorb as much of our money as possible, to get as many votes as possible, for their own personal (financial) gain. But then again, hypocritical to say the least when everyone on Earth is out living, searching for happiness, whether it be through selfish means or not.